Honey & T

Project V: Check-In Tuesdays

Consistency is not my strong point, apparently. I haven’t been posting on a regular basis, and to be honest I probably won’t be for a while. I’m just going to pop in when I feel like it, okay?

Check-In Tuesdays are supposed to be about progress. It is a reminder to myself that I need to keep trying, no matter how far away the goal may be. And trust me, at this point it’s not happening for another 5 years or so. That’s 1825+ days, folks. Am I bummed? A little bit. Can I do anything to hurry it? Not really.

When I start to second guess myself, I try to talk myself out of it. Will I actually profit from building and running my own wedding venue? Do I have what it takes, the know-how? Should I really throw all of my energy and money into such a huge gamble? Of course, there’s the biggest doubt of all: fear of failure. How would I pick myself back up after? Maybe I should go for something smaller, like a bakery or a yoga studio or just be a real estate owner. What’s the fun in that though? My love for weddings stems from being in the center of all the energy and love brought out for the couple committing themselves to each other. How do I let go of the joy it brings me?

I just typed a lot of feelings, mushy, girly stuff. I’m not apologizing for how I feel. It’s been a tough road, and the road’s barely started. I hope you follow this tough cookie along for the ride.

With love,